Stressed and Blessed

     I was sitting here thinking about the past 48 hours and i can only shake my head and thank God for watching over me and my family. Whenever I get too overwhelmed with reality I escape into my old movies and let them take me to another place. Gone With The Wind is my favorite movie whenever I feel stressed and ready to bust at the seams. I also watch black and white movies until I can't keep my eyes open. Breaking All the Rules keeps me laughing and The Wedding Planner is my hopeless romantic movie. Lol. 
    

     I stress about a lot of things that I can't control, I know its not good for me but I can't help it. I worry about my kids and bills and I stress about my health but I'm truly blessed and thankful that God has kept me this far. I read about things going on in the world and how some parents don't appreciate their children, faults and all. I'm just glad that I can walk and talk and have the right frame of mind. I pray that I am able to help those that I can and be able to receive that same help when I need it. 

New Year

I am going to start writing something everyday, just random thoughts and my take on the daily news and current events. See ya soon.

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I just had to leave and catch my breath. My heart is pounding so hard I can hear it in my head. How could they do this to me? I have been nothing but a friend and this is how they repay me. I’m hurt and most of all I’m ashamed. My legs became heavier as I started to slowly lose my breath. I finally stopped and bent over with my hands on my knees to catch my breath and wipe my face. No one saw me leave, no one saw me in the doorway either. Once she stopped running she realized how cold it was and that she all of a sudden was lost. Her memory escaping her as she tried to make out her surroundings through her tear filled eyes.

MY MEMORY WAS as if it was shattered glass I don't remember anything name nothing every thing seemed as if it was a dream I felt as if I was so out of control and too witness what I just saw only dread and fear consumed me! I remained on my knees crying as if I was going to emotionally die inside I felt my heart hardening like a stone as the tears began too dry I got angry and and wanted revenge.

I stormed back to the house where the party was still going on. No one even noticed that I was sweating and shivering from the cold. That just made me madder. So I made my way back upstairs to my bedroom and stood in the doorway. I could see them under the blanket doing God knows what. My heart became cold and my anger rose until I could only see red. I stormed into the bedroom and yelled his name. Joshua! What the hell is going on in here? I know you didn’t have the balls to sleep with some trick in my damn bed! The covers stopped moving and all of a sudden I could see red hair. Who the hell is under that blanket? You better show yourself before I catch a damn case. When she turned around my heart hit the floor.

Hello Hello Hello

Hello guys and dolls I am here and I'm ready to blog blog blog blog blog. That's right if you have a question or just a thought that requires some discussion please let me know and I will respond. It would be my pleasure to give my opinion about anything.... so hope to hear from you soon. 

PS I'm working on my writing so throw me a few hints. 

MJ

A NEW BEGINNING

I just started moving into my new place over the weekend. I was so excited to be starting over and looking forward to just me and my youngest daughter being by ourselves. My oldest two are 18 and 20 so they are moving on. I'm sad but excited at the same time. My 14 y/o is so happy to be alone for a change, lol. I was just wondering if me wanting to be alone and not deal with my kids attitudes a wrong thing? I believe that I have given myself as a single parent 210% the last 21 years and I now deserve a break. I will always be momma just letting my little birdies spread their wings and fly on their own journey.

LORD GIVE ME STRENGTH

GOOD AFTERNOON EVERYBODY I AM TRYING TO GET BACK INTO THE SWING OF THINGS. LIFE IS A FUNNY THING, YOU CAN SHOW SOMEONE HOW MUCH YOU LOVE THEM BUT NEVER UNDERSTAND THE IMPACT THAT PERSON HAS ON YOUR LIFE UNTIL ITS TOO LATE.  I WONDER IF I WILL EVER FIND THAT TYPE OF LOVE IN MY LIFE, I KNOW IN MY HEART THAT ITS THERE BUT I JUST CANT SEEM TO GRASP IT AT ALL. I LOVE MY KIDS AND I FEEL AS IF MY LIFE IS ALL ABOUT THE PEOPLE THAT SURROUND ME, I MUST LEARN TO LET GO AND REALLY LET GOD TAKE CARE OF EVERYBODY ELSE. I WILL HAVE TO PRAY VERY HARD ON THAT ONE. I TRY TO BE LIKED BY EVERYBODY BUT I AM SLOWLY LEARNING THAT EVERYBODY WILL NOT LIKE ME, MY BILLS WILL CONTINUE TO GROW AND MY STRESS LEVEL WILL CONTINUE TO RISE BUT THE HELP THAT I AM LOOKING FOR WILL NOT COME FROM THOSE AROUND ME, I AM WORKING MYSELF INTO AN EARLY GRAVE. I LOVE MY EXTENDED FAMILY BUT I WEAR MY HEART ON MY SLEEVE AND THATS SOMETHING THAT I CANT CHANGE, SO I GUESS I WILL TRY TO CONCENTRATE ON ME AND WHAT I WANT MY FUTURE TO LOOK LIKE, IT HAS TO START WITH ME SO LORD GIVE ME STRENGTH.....

TO BE CONTINUED

Just Thinking

I have been out of work now for over a month and I wonder what the hell is goin on? I try to do right by others and be a good mother but I still keep getting the short end of the stick. Well it neva pays to sit and whine abt the situation....so Imma pray on it and hope all is well that ends well.

Miniya

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