GOOD AFTERNOON EVERYBODY I AM TRYING TO GET BACK INTO THE SWING OF THINGS. LIFE IS A FUNNY THING, YOU CAN SHOW SOMEONE HOW MUCH YOU LOVE THEM BUT NEVER UNDERSTAND THE IMPACT THAT PERSON HAS ON YOUR LIFE UNTIL ITS TOO LATE. I WONDER IF I WILL EVER FIND THAT TYPE OF LOVE IN MY LIFE, I KNOW IN MY HEART THAT ITS THERE BUT I JUST CANT SEEM TO GRASP IT AT ALL. I LOVE MY KIDS AND I FEEL AS IF MY LIFE IS ALL ABOUT THE PEOPLE THAT SURROUND ME, I MUST LEARN TO LET GO AND REALLY LET GOD TAKE CARE OF EVERYBODY ELSE. I WILL HAVE TO PRAY VERY HARD ON THAT ONE. I TRY TO BE LIKED BY EVERYBODY BUT I AM SLOWLY LEARNING THAT EVERYBODY WILL NOT LIKE ME, MY BILLS WILL CONTINUE TO GROW AND MY STRESS LEVEL WILL CONTINUE TO RISE BUT THE HELP THAT I AM LOOKING FOR WILL NOT COME FROM THOSE AROUND ME, I AM WORKING MYSELF INTO AN EARLY GRAVE. I LOVE MY EXTENDED FAMILY BUT I WEAR MY HEART ON MY SLEEVE AND THATS SOMETHING THAT I CANT CHANGE, SO I GUESS I WILL TRY TO CONCENTRATE ON ME AND WHAT I WANT MY FUTURE TO LOOK LIKE, IT HAS TO START WITH ME SO LORD GIVE ME STRENGTH.....
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